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Self- Love and the Expansion of Consciousness

Dylan's Storm
Self- Love and the Expansion of Consciousness

Dylan's Storm The Awakening We hear a lot about the need to ‘love ourselves’ but…

Dylan's Storm The Awakening We hear a lot about the need to ‘love ourselves’ but what does it really involve? I thought I had a reasonable level of self-love, however, the last few months has shown me I had much more love available for myself.  I’ve seen that the practice of self- love and expanded consciousness go hand in hand. One won’t happen without the other. My experience is, the more I learn about my trauma and heal; the deeper…

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The Final Chapter

The Final Chapter

  The Authentic Self This has been a long time coming…. Not only in terms…

  The Authentic Self This has been a long time coming…. Not only in terms of my inconsistency with blogs, but with it being over five years since Rides draft was completed and well over ten years since Dylan self-transitioned. It was 10 years on the 6th January 2023. I knew I would want to write and acknowledge the day/year and I knew I wouldn’t be writing it on the 6th January or the weeks either side. Those days were…

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Word Alchemy – Courage

Word Alchemy – Courage

Photo: The Boulder Bank or Te Pokohiwi is a 13 kilometre long, naturally formed landform…

Photo: The Boulder Bank or Te Pokohiwi is a 13 kilometre long, naturally formed landform in Nelson, New Zealand. The rocks of the boulder bank are letters and words.  Every day with changing tide, sea mood, and energy,  they move and form different patterns and placements; making different sounds, meanings, and effects. You are the sea. Word Alchemy  -  Courage When I was writing Ride and was asked; ‘what do you do?’  I would answer that I was writing a…

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Authentic Connection – Part 4

Authentic Connection – Part 4

Photo: Dylan's Passing site Daffodils Radiating Light. 2019.  Page 130 in Ride   Peace ... through…

Photo: Dylan's Passing site Daffodils Radiating Light. 2019.  Page 130 in Ride   Peace ... through Connection with Self-Spirit-Nature. Authentic Connection – Part Four (following on from Parts one, two and three). Authentic Connection and Feelings. In my previous blog I suggest that Authentic connection requires us to be connected with ourselves first. This requires a certain level of self-awareness. We are best connected with ourselves if we can be aware of our feelings and how they may be affecting our…

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Authentic Connection – Part 3

Authentic Connection – Part 3

Photo: The Lee Valley where we spread Gus's ashes Authentic Connection - Part Three (following…

Photo: The Lee Valley where we spread Gus's ashes Authentic Connection - Part Three (following on from Part one and Part two) Avoiding or Creating Authentic Connections - it's our choice. Not long after Dylan's death, a long standing friend of almost 20 years – withdrew, and to this day still ignores me. Since she won’t talk with me, I have had to understand the reason she withdrew without her input. I consider at least some of the reason was…

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Authentic Connection – Part 2

Authentic Connection – Part 2

Photo: White basket fungus. Connection Holds Things Together. Authentic Connection - Part Two (following on…

Photo: White basket fungus. Connection Holds Things Together. Authentic Connection - Part Two (following on from Part one). When Dylan had only just died many people wanted to connect with me- at that time we had a lot in common – we were all shocked and many of us were incredibly sad that Dylan had made the decision he did. It was surprising to me though, that not long after Dylan’s death many of those same people withdrew and had…

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Authentic Connection – Part 1

Authentic Connection – Part 1

Photo: Burial stones 24.4.2014 Authentic Connection - Part One. Connection is a big word –…

Photo: Burial stones 24.4.2014 Authentic Connection - Part One. Connection is a big word – It’s a bit like Ride in that it has multiple meanings and applications. In many of the stories in Ride- the book, connection is a central theme. In these four Authentic Connection blogs I am going to explore more about the nature of connection. I am hoping that maybe the blogs will get people thinking about - What we chose to connect to Who we…

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The ‘working’ title for Ride

The ‘working’ title for Ride
Photo: Light coming through Dylans tree (24/4/2016) When I was writing, the ‘working’ title for…
Photo: Light coming through Dylans tree (24/4/2016)
When I was writing, the ‘working’ title for Ride was ‘Life after Suicide’ - meaning my life and Dylan’s life after his departure. It became pretty obvious that the word suicide wasn’t necessary in the title and that the writing was so much more than ‘just about suicide’. I cannot even tell you when Ride became the title – it just seemed to arrive in my mind and when I considered it I could see the value of it and the multiple level meanings it had within it.
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The synopsis of Ride

The synopsis of Ride
Photo: Tutaki in flood on 14.10.2013 When it came to write the synopsis for the…
Photo: Tutaki in flood on 14.10.2013
When it came to write the synopsis for the book I thought – ‘What the fuck is this book about!’. I knew it was my story and my Ride but I really didn’t know what it was actually ‘saying’. The synopsis that I have written is what the book is about to me however I have a feeling that it is going to mean different things to different folks.
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Writing Ride – the back story…

Writing Ride – the back story…
Photo: Gus's ashes. Ride is a book that has come about because an internal nagging…
Photo: Gus's ashes.
Ride is a book that has come about because an internal nagging wouldn’t go away. I tried to ignore the nagging and decide it was born from an impractical unachievable dream that was irrelevant in my new reality. It wouldn’t go away so - In the end I surrendered and ‘put aside’ 9 months in 2017 to write - just to see what happened. I had written short notes over the previous years – of key words, and sometimes I used them as starting points. Sometimes I sat at my computer and the words would just flow from my fingers.
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